I was supposed to write this post after my exam, as promised, but I think I’m just gonna write it now since I’ll be spending the whole day in the library and it’ll be impossible for me to sit and study for 8 hours. Give me 2 seconds while I twist and turn to find a cosy position since I’m hoping it’ll be a long post to make up for all the recent reflections and thoughts that I’ve failed to pen for, 2 months? And trust me, I know what it’s like to open a blog and be disappointed to see the same thing over and over again (doesn’t matter whether it’s a good blog).
The past few days have been such a drag for me with the exams and assignment marks coming my way. It’s that time of the year where I travel outside my comfort zone of being able to just drift through life without having that many doubts about my own capabilities. Well, what does it really mean when you say you’re not in your comfort zone? Does it simply mean that you’re somehow in unfamiliar territory where things are just not how you like them to be? Or do you reckon it’s just transition for a change that’s about to hit you?
What’s more significant is the fact that most people (and yes, most people includes me) tend to just crawl back into their comfort zone without actually trying to embrace it, feel/do something different for a change and just go along with the flow. Every time I move back to it, It feels as though I’ve lost a small fraction of thrill and excitement in life. I mean, there’s nothing to life if you look forward to a brand new day knowing you’ve got nothing to look forward to? Don’t you think a person’s comfort zone would become a case of ‘same shit, different day‘ if it just carries on that way for a long period of time?
Just the other day, I was listening to an oldies channel, pretty much the Light and Easy station of Brisbane and they were playing that Billy Joel song titled Honesty. Don’t know if you guys have heard of it but it’s one of those songs that seemed simple but pretty much sums up the true meaning of what the song is all about. Honesty. The lyrics went something like ‘’ Honesty is such a lonely word, everyone is so untrue. “. And don’t you think that’s true? I mean, most of the time people lie and justify it by telling themselves that they do it for the sake of the person they are lying to. They say the truth is overrated because if no one were to find out about their lies, both parties are happy because most of the time, the truth is what hurts right? Of course, everyone has their own definition of a lie but doesn’t a lie simply mean not telling the truth?
You can tell someone that what he/she is wearing is nice when it isn’t and that’s clearly a plain and simple lie. Yeah yeah, you didn’t want to hurt his/her feelings and make it all awkward by giving him/her your honest opinion. But doesn’t it mean that you’re cultivating a habit, a habit of not telling the truth? Old habits die hard and a few small lies like that would someday mean you’ll tell a bigger one. I’m not sure if it was an English or Chinese saying but it is said that everything bad starts with something small and insignificant and becomes worse. Like how a person who’s good at lying, turns into a thief and then ends up being a full-time robber. At the end of it all, it’s down to whether you think the end justifies the means or doing the right thing in the first place is more important. What do you think?
On a very different note, as most of you would’ve known, Barack Obama is now the president-elect of the U.S which is something most, if not everyone predicted to happen. A majority of the people think that it’s a great achievement that the U.S have evolved from the days of apartheid to electing a black man to lead their country. They think that skin colour would no longer be a distinguishing factor in the U.S as ‘proven’ by the elections but if voting for someone because he/she is not black is racism, why doesn’t the same theory apply to only voting for someone because he’s black? I know it’s a fact that might be hard to swallow but I think that the elections in the U.S was in some way a means of proving that racism no longer exists on a large scale there. By saying this, I’m not really doubting Obama’s capabilities as a president but I guess there are always 2 sides to the story.
The funny thing is, after this happened, Badawi who I must say enjoys long naps while his family members run the country, has come out to say that anyone can be the Prime Minister of Malaysia regardless of their race. I must say, that’ll either take a long long time or it’ll take what I thought happened in the U.S for that to materialise. I’m not a big fan of all this political bullshit but when it comes to Malaysian politics, I have to say it takes the number one spot in terms of sex scandals, lies and money laundering.
